I was rejected from Graduate school 2 days ago :( Mind you I only applied to 1 school but it still stings. There is only 1 grad school in my year that offers my program and I was unsure if my parents would let me go out of my city so I didn't even bother. Honestly, I knew that I didn't have a great chance so I just applied to the one I really wanted to go to. Coincidentally, the blow wasn't as tragic as I believed it would be. Mainly because I believe that God has a plan, and there must be something better out there for me. But until I figure out what that is, I'm stuck. I currently work at a school but my contract is over in 2 weeks on June 25th. Gotta go job searching again. In a way this is a blessing because I get to experience something else, hopefully something closer to what I really want to do and maybe I might actually figure what it IS that I would really like to do. Hopefully with more experience, the next time I apply to grad school I'll have a better shot and this time I'll apply to more than 1.
I've already been out of school for almost a year, and I'm not that much closer to figuring anything out. Thankfully, I have no loans I have to pay off so thats a huge stress relief. I've saved a little bit from this job so I can now afford a used but decent car, but remember those lessons? Well my driving instructor sucked, so I stopped after 1 and as usual have procrastinated til now. My brother told me a few days ago that in return of all the money he owed me, he'll teach me to drive. Thats great, since I'm pretty sure it would've taken him FOREVER to pay me back a measly $400, its been 2 years and he's always had a job -_-
Ahh what to do? what to do? oh why have I still not figured anything?? Anyways, til I do figure it out I'm enjoying my life, hangin out with my friends, my sister is getting better and we're going to London next month. My friends are truly amazing! They will never realize how much it meant to me that even after we got seperated (30 min drive but still) they would randomly come and pick me up just so they could hang out with me. They would rent a car (zip car) or when on of us FINALLY bought a car, they would just come and kidnap me lol. We're all getting seperated now, the friends you make at college will eventually go on to have their own lives and you just have to find a way to connect. I just know that these are some of the friends I'll have for a lifetime. Dang it! Why are some of my closest friends international??
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
APPLYING FOR MASTERS PROGRAM = STRESS
I scheduled my road test last Monday for next Monday. I'm stressed. One thing about me is that I'm never completely stressed out all over ever, however when I do get stressed for short periods of time, I am sta-ressed!! I think that I must wear out quite easily. Its probably because I tend to get obsessed easily and am a semi-perfectionist so I tend to focus on one thing too much sometimes. ANYWAYS, I don't know how to drive. I took 1 lesson 4 years ago and that was it. The driving school is trying to get me to take 2 lessons in 1 day, I dont know if I should do that or space them out. The main stressor however is that I might need to leave work an hour or 2 earlier just to take these lessons, my boss is pretty lenient but I don't know. Also, I scheduled my road test for another town because I heard it might be easier but how am I supposed to get there on time? Hopefully, my brother can drop me, plus he's planning on getting his friends car for me to use because his inspection expired. But what if he can't ? Should I just go to my towns one which is only 10 minutes away? but what if I fail?? arghhhh!!! I'll figure it out.... :/
My application for the MSW is due in 10 days. I still haven't gotten any recommendations back and I still need to get my editted personal statement back from the professor that told me it would be better if I got a recommendation from a PHD professor....dude I just need a recommendation, but kindly he is helping me edit my essay :) My masters track is another GIGANTIC stress in itself. 1st my gpa is horrendous, 2nd my recommendation letters are not from my "major" professors, 3rd I have no idea whats going on with my statement, 4th I don't even know in which track of Social Work I want to focus on because its such a diverse field, 5th alot of the people that are applying are older and have TONS of experience..and me, well you know my story. 6th my application is still incomplete because my college guidance counselor is quite nice,but doesn't seem to understand very basic questions, but I'm still grateful that she is helping me at all. 7th my financial aid application is still undone because i dont know if I should apply now even though I haven't gotten accepted yet. 8th my principal (boss) asks me all the time about how my application is going & is really on my case..i dont really know why. 9th I really need to get into a masters program, how else am I supposed to get a serious job? 10th this will help me delay marriage proposals... oh my goodness I have 10 reasons... stressssssssss -_- & needs to be completed w/n a week...more streeeesssssssssss -_____-
My application for the MSW is due in 10 days. I still haven't gotten any recommendations back and I still need to get my editted personal statement back from the professor that told me it would be better if I got a recommendation from a PHD professor....dude I just need a recommendation, but kindly he is helping me edit my essay :) My masters track is another GIGANTIC stress in itself. 1st my gpa is horrendous, 2nd my recommendation letters are not from my "major" professors, 3rd I have no idea whats going on with my statement, 4th I don't even know in which track of Social Work I want to focus on because its such a diverse field, 5th alot of the people that are applying are older and have TONS of experience..and me, well you know my story. 6th my application is still incomplete because my college guidance counselor is quite nice,but doesn't seem to understand very basic questions, but I'm still grateful that she is helping me at all. 7th my financial aid application is still undone because i dont know if I should apply now even though I haven't gotten accepted yet. 8th my principal (boss) asks me all the time about how my application is going & is really on my case..i dont really know why. 9th I really need to get into a masters program, how else am I supposed to get a serious job? 10th this will help me delay marriage proposals... oh my goodness I have 10 reasons... stressssssssss -_- & needs to be completed w/n a week...more streeeesssssssssss -_____-
Thursday, January 10, 2013
NO LONGER A BROKEDA BROKE
I have a job!!! woohooo!! After months of endless job applications I was called back for a tutor position. Yes, a position pretty much unrelated to my degree. After a few weeks I started to apply for everything and anything I would qualify for. Reason? Money. I was completely broke and I had bills to pay. Pretty good incentive I must say. Needless to say, I was pretty much desperate. I even applied to various cashier positions, but not one called me back. I have a Bachelors degree from the best University in the city, what the heck?? On second thought, maybe I might have if I had a consistent phone number..whoops.
At some point I started to doubt myself, and my skills. I knew what I could bring but I had no way to showcase it. Since I am so awesome, why wasn't I getting called back? Was it my background check? I don't have a criminal background, but I did get fired once a long time ago for being absent 3 times in half a year, however my managers and I had a great working relationship so I believe they wouldn't say anything detrimental. After which, I successfully held 2 jobs, which were a better consideration of my skills.
Hmm..was it because I was being profiled? I don't like to think so though I'm sure it has happened. I've seen the looks on faces when I go to apply for say a store or restaurant. Mind you, I'm not extremely beautiful but I'm not ugly either, I guess you could call me 'cute' ( short & skinny :/) I don't look like a bum, far from it actually, and I know for sure that I come out as being extremely nice. So what is it? Its the scarf. I know it and they know it, but no one brings it up because its bad manners. I have noticed that it is only the "lower level" jobs that pay much consideration into it, the higher level jobs look more into the skills and a few have called me from that. Interestingly however that's when I had removed some of the more 'controversial' aspects from my resume such as the fact that I was the editor in chief of a magazine by the Muslim student association or that I was the president of the Bangladeshi student association. So much for all the work I had put into those, you would think that they would be interested in my leadership skills, but alas that is not to be.
ANYWAYS back to my current job. So when I had fallen into the pits of joblessness, I received an email to be a tutor at a charter school, I was basically grasping at straws by then so I went. I must have been quite impressive because after they met me they asked if I wanted to be a full time teachers aid. Umm yeah! full time?? and you're gonna pay me? of course! I received a call before winter break, and after the break, I was hired. Here's where it gets interesting. When I go in the first day they ask me a few questions about my degree and bada bing bada boom I'm offered an Assistant Guidance Counselor position. Needless to say I was blown. ahhh what did you say? please repeat. They explained that since I wanted to be a Social Worker this position would be better related to my career aspirations, and if I was interested. It was as if I was hearing the harps in heaven and the sunlight was poring into the room in beautiful translucent streams. I agreed instantly. It was perfect and although it was an assistant position it was still much more than I expected, and when they offered me my salary (which was considerably higher than a normal teachers aid position) I knew that I was blessed. I now have my own office (which I share w/ the senior Guidance Counselor) and basically do everything they do. It seems more like an internship, than as an assistant-ship since I have more responsibilities. But dang do I have a lot of free time, its amazing. But when I get busy, its HECTIC. Thank god I'm a fast learner, otherwise I really would have had a hard time. I thank god everyday I finally found a job, and a good one with that.
PS: Since I got hired, I got 2 call backs in 2 weeks from other jobs I had applied to..more related to my major. Wth? Where were they when I was jobless? Oh well, I know I got a good deal so I'm staying here and loving it. Til next time :)
At some point I started to doubt myself, and my skills. I knew what I could bring but I had no way to showcase it. Since I am so awesome, why wasn't I getting called back? Was it my background check? I don't have a criminal background, but I did get fired once a long time ago for being absent 3 times in half a year, however my managers and I had a great working relationship so I believe they wouldn't say anything detrimental. After which, I successfully held 2 jobs, which were a better consideration of my skills.
Hmm..was it because I was being profiled? I don't like to think so though I'm sure it has happened. I've seen the looks on faces when I go to apply for say a store or restaurant. Mind you, I'm not extremely beautiful but I'm not ugly either, I guess you could call me 'cute' ( short & skinny :/) I don't look like a bum, far from it actually, and I know for sure that I come out as being extremely nice. So what is it? Its the scarf. I know it and they know it, but no one brings it up because its bad manners. I have noticed that it is only the "lower level" jobs that pay much consideration into it, the higher level jobs look more into the skills and a few have called me from that. Interestingly however that's when I had removed some of the more 'controversial' aspects from my resume such as the fact that I was the editor in chief of a magazine by the Muslim student association or that I was the president of the Bangladeshi student association. So much for all the work I had put into those, you would think that they would be interested in my leadership skills, but alas that is not to be.
ANYWAYS back to my current job. So when I had fallen into the pits of joblessness, I received an email to be a tutor at a charter school, I was basically grasping at straws by then so I went. I must have been quite impressive because after they met me they asked if I wanted to be a full time teachers aid. Umm yeah! full time?? and you're gonna pay me? of course! I received a call before winter break, and after the break, I was hired. Here's where it gets interesting. When I go in the first day they ask me a few questions about my degree and bada bing bada boom I'm offered an Assistant Guidance Counselor position. Needless to say I was blown. ahhh what did you say? please repeat. They explained that since I wanted to be a Social Worker this position would be better related to my career aspirations, and if I was interested. It was as if I was hearing the harps in heaven and the sunlight was poring into the room in beautiful translucent streams. I agreed instantly. It was perfect and although it was an assistant position it was still much more than I expected, and when they offered me my salary (which was considerably higher than a normal teachers aid position) I knew that I was blessed. I now have my own office (which I share w/ the senior Guidance Counselor) and basically do everything they do. It seems more like an internship, than as an assistant-ship since I have more responsibilities. But dang do I have a lot of free time, its amazing. But when I get busy, its HECTIC. Thank god I'm a fast learner, otherwise I really would have had a hard time. I thank god everyday I finally found a job, and a good one with that.
PS: Since I got hired, I got 2 call backs in 2 weeks from other jobs I had applied to..more related to my major. Wth? Where were they when I was jobless? Oh well, I know I got a good deal so I'm staying here and loving it. Til next time :)
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