Oh My Beloved Health Insurance Where Art Thou? :(

And here I am again. At the hospital. It's become such a usual habit now. Sometimes it feels like a 2nd home, sometimes it feels like jail. My sister is being treated for fever and with her leukemia you can never be too sure. I've quickly become the person to stay over with her, and go to the appointments with since I'm currently quite free.  

I'm still looking for a job but unfortunately with not enough fervor as I would like to search for it with. I just don't have the energy. Each application takes so long, but I'm getting there. Slowly but surely. I have just had a lot of issues on my plate lately. Namely my lack of health insurance. My Medicaid is over since I'm 22 and I don't have a job, therefore I am pretty much screwed. I tried to get Medicaid again but apparently if you collect unemployment, and they pay more than minimum, you are no longer eligible. I only applied for unemployment because the Medicaid office told me I had to receive it in order to get Medicaid, and now I can't even receive health insurance. Does that make any sense? My 2 teeth have been bothering me so it was of utmost importance to get health insurance. My search for it resulted in all dead ends so I ended up just paying for it. So far I paid $85 for only an X-ray. $90 for an extraction and soon I will pay another $120 for a cavity. $300 altogether. That's crazy. 

REJECTED, BUT RELIEVED

Got rejected from MSW again and you know what? I was kinda glad. Actually no, it hurts my pride to get rejected again especially since they said that everything was perfect. I was glad about the rejection though because recently I've been thinking that maybe I don't want to do social work as a career. I've researched and researched and honestly for me at this point in my life I don't want to invest so much time in something that's not so secure and comes with a lot of emotional baggage, not to mention the low pay as well. I was prepared for all of that though but after gaining more experience in education this seems to fit my goals at the moment. I can't honestly say that I have a passion for it, but I do like it. How many people actually know what they have a passion for? I envy those that truly have a passion for what they're doing. I probably just need more experience before I'll know. Ironically, now that I've decided not to continue in social work I'm receiving more opportunities in it. Weird, right? 

3 JOB ACCEPTANCES...WHAT NOW?

I should just stop apologizing for not updating this blog. I don't even know why I delude myself into thinking that I can update periodically, what has happened to my diaries is now and has been happening to my blog. Well let me update you. I stopped working as an Assistant Guidance Counselor around June of 2013. It is now April 2014. On January 2nd I started my internship at the International Institute working within the refugee services department. I was just so sick of staying home, and I figured at least this will give me some experience into my field, plus they gave me free tokens for the bus on the days I work. Score. Btw did I mention that I have a car now? Hecks to the yeah! I stopped taking the bus about 2 weeks ago. I just can't get myself to wake up early and wait for the bus anymore, plus my internship is relatively close so I'm not wasting THAT much gas.

Anyways, I have loved this internship but man oh man was it exhausting. Other than filing and paperwork I had to escort new refugees to different locations such as the Social Security Office or the Hospital with the bus. This is so they can learn how to use public transportation and become more independent. Of course with my luck I started this in the coldest days of winter. I was freezing everyday but cliche as it sounds, it was worth it. I can still vividly remember the times an Iraqi refugee insisted I eat lunch with him and I soon learned after of his loneliness coming to this cold state with no family. The time I had to explain with various visual cues on how to take a feces sample for a burmese grandmother (that was a trip lol ) and the many times I took families to places where they depended wholly upon me, and I truly realized how many things I took for granted.

This internship also turned out to be very helpful because when I did get called in for interviews I was able to talk about my experiences there since it is so closely related to the fields I applied to. I was also able to use my Case Manager as a source of recommendation. Currently I'm facing an issue that I cannot believe I'm facing again. I have been accepted to 2 per diem jobs and am being considered for a full time position as well. WHY is this happening again? I did not receive anything for MONTHS and then in 2 weeks I've been considered for 3 positions and they're all great. This also happened to me last year. As soon as I was accepted as an Assistant Guidance Counselor I was accepted to another full time position 1 week later and I probably would've still been there if I had accepted, the pay was the same as well. It was my fault tho, I did not realize I accepted a non renewing school year contract. Oh well bygones be bygones, I still had a great time experience working at the school. I basically accepted both per diems and I'm hoping they don't clash when they call me in. I'll fill you in the rest later toodles :)

FINALLY GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE!! CUE THE EXPENSIVE CAR COSTS

Guesss whatttt?!!! I finally have my drivers license! Yay me :D It only took forever but I have it. I finally finally have it :') My friend and I had a competition on who would get theirs first, and lets just say I didn't win. Shh don't tell anyone but that was my 3rd road test. I know, the shame. The 1st road tests failure was not my fault my tester was just a big scaredy cat and almost died with the test taker before mine so he was afraid of every little thing when I was taking it. The second time I admit was my fault. Out of all times, the street lights just had to malfunction that day and I kept forgetting to treat it like a stop sign because (a) I've never experienced that before, and (b) since it was off my brain just did not register to do anything about it. Plus it was a super quiet not busy street so there were no cars for me to be cautious of, I failed :( My 3rd and final try was so much easier than I expected. I wish someone could've recorded the look of joy on my face when she said I passed, woo I was so excited. I really started to think driving was just not in my cards. I was determined to get my drivers license before the end of 2013 and on December 30, 2013 after 3 road tests, 1 permit renewal, and 3 five hour courses later I finally got my license :D Needless to say, I was so ready to drive my new car with my brand new license,  and then BAM a crazy snowy winter arrived and my car has since been hibernating in the garage :/

My brothers induction ceremony speech when I finally bought my car "Welcome to the car world where everything is more expensive". OMG, the tiniest repairs cost so dang much!! My car is very well maintained but goodness gracious the costs for the most basic of stuff is always near a $100. Maybe I should've just stuck with the bus :/ Stupid plates, stupid insurance, stupid inspection, stupid gas bye bye precious money. Wanna know something funny? I scratched my flawless car on 2 sides within 2 weeks of buying it. *cue sexist women driver jokes* To be fair they both occurred while I was still practicing for the road test. The only bright side of it is that I owned the car, so no one can reprimand me about it. Thank Goodness. So if you see a cute little red hyundai elantra with a long scratch on either side wave hi, its me :)